I know it's been quite a while since I posted, but it seems like I haven't had much to talk about (besides a lot of personal stuff). However, I recently reached a major milestone and made an amazing purchase!
I was recently spending some leisurely time shopping at Hobby Lobby (LOVE that place!!) and I happened upon the aisle with mirrors. The sign said, "All mirrors 50% off." I have to tell you... I have HATED mirrors for more years than I can count, and I avoided them as much as I could - especially full length ones! BUT... miracle of all miracles, with my weight loss I have found that I CAN face the full length mirror! So I bought one (at half price, did I mention that??)! I hauled it into my house and leaned it up against the wall. And I looked at myself without fear. For those of you who have battled weight and self esteem issues, you understand how signficant this is. Seriously, I don't believe I have owned a full length mirror my entire adult life. I truly cannot remember having a full length mirror in my home as long as I've had my own place, which is since 1984!
And now for my major milestone... as of April 5, 2014, I have lost 100 pounds!! This journey has been so very amazing that I have a hard time describing it! My entire life has changed. I am eager to begin each day, instead of waking up each morning dreading what I would wear and what people would think of me. I now have total confidence in myself, instead of always wondering what people are thinking of me on a physical level that has nothing to do with me as a person, my job capabilities, or performance. Over the past year, my increasing confidence has resulted in my ability to stretch beyond my doubts and accomplish things I would not have attempted before!
So what's next? Well....I know that I am able to eat more than I could following the first few months after surgery, and that really scares me. My game plan is to eat sensibly, not deny myself too many things (as it only results in me binging), and to continue to monitor my weight. I weigh myself every morning, and although some may say that is too often, it helps to guide my decisions each day.
I plan to maintain this weight from now on!!
